Randomness part 2 XXDDDD

Randomness is the key to confusion =D... in this part 2, there may be some repetition from the earlier randomness post XD

Hmmm, I just downloaded some songs =)
The Killers- Mr.Brightside
Boyzone- Words
Elliot Yamin- Wait For You
Uncle Kracker- Follow Me
Bryan Adams- Please Forgive Me
Coldplay- Yellow
Extreme- More Than Words

Err, still dunno what to do for the 2 weeks holiday

bought the 7th book of the A House Of Night Novel- Burned

Hi-Chewy sweet is nice =D

bought 3 bb guns =D but 1 cacated =(

hmm, gained 2kg... good or bad thing le?

bought Naruto the 6th movie and an anime called Shangri-la

err, got i think 3 dramas which i want to buy but cannot remember the name

pretzels are nice and so are cinnabon

my room is always in a mess =(

I can never seem to study

err, used to getting rejected or isolated XD

hmm, loves food... other than see ham and seafood

wants to paly badminton!!! damn long never play ady wei

loves animals but cannot take care of them properly =(...

I've low IQ and EQ

Err, low self-esteem and no expectations for myself... maybe thats why everything i do also seems to be ok XD

loves to write stories... but all cacated especially the grammar and the way I write. Even the storyline sucks. Worse yet, all half way hang gei ... a 5year old can write better than me wei XD

err, apparently I have 6 skin colors on me XD... hands- lower part, hands- upper part, face, body, legs and feet (thx basketball & my stupidity to play in the sun)

hmm, I love baskin robbins -pistachio almond and old fashion butter pecan =D & new Zealand natural green tea =D

err, I suck when it comes to talking to people... strangers and especially towards girls...

lol... thats all i can crap about now XD

Today

hmm, morning was fun =).... basketball as usual. The most surprising thing is that Hee Ching came =D... but then she left after sitting down for 5 mins or so XD.

1Utama after that was ok, until we met up with Jian-Yong. That stupid yat hong waste my time just to go see cheerleaders... correction just a cheerleader. I was so grumpy the whole time we were with J-Y cause I was dead tired from bb this morning...
- After ball, ate at Cravings around 11, then Waffle World right after that and lastly KFC around 5pm... ate so much but still hungry. So when i reach home at 6.30, I ate economic rice XD.

My Personality =DD

I think I've found out what my personality is =D...
I'm a ISFJ + ISFP + INFJ + ESFJ + ENFJ... not really a INFJ though
its err very very long... cause I just copy and paste everything XD so plagarism is like 100% which means I would have gotten a 0 for any assignment XD
so I say you guys should also go check whats your personality if you're not entirely sure:
http://www.personalitypage.com/high-level.html

Portrait of an ISFJ - Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging
(Introverted Sensing with Extraverted Feeling)

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The Nurturer

As an ISFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you takes things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system.

ISFJs live in a world that is concrete and kind. They are truly warm and kind-hearted, and want to believe the best of people. They value harmony and cooperation, and are likely to be very sensitive to other people's feelings. People value the ISFJ for their consideration and awareness, and their ability to bring out the best in others by their firm desire to believe the best.

ISFJs have a rich inner world that is not usually obvious to observers. They constantly take in information about people and situations that is personally important to them, and store it away. This tremendous store of information is usually startlingly accurate, because the ISFJ has an exceptional memory about things that are important to their value systems. It would not be uncommon for the ISFJ to remember a particular facial expression or conversation in precise detail years after the event occured, if the situation made an impression on the ISFJ.

ISFJs have a very clear idea of the way things should be, which they strive to attain. They value security and kindness, and respect traditions and laws. They tend to believe that existing systems are there because they work. Therefore, they're not likely to buy into doing things in a new way, unless they're shown in a concrete way why its better than the established method.

ISFJs learn best by doing, rather than by reading about something in a book, or applying theory. For this reason, they are not likely to be found in fields which require a lot of conceptual analysis or theory. They value practical application. Traditional methods of higher education, which require a lot of theorizing and abstraction, are likely to be a chore for the ISFJ. The ISFJ learns a task best by being shown its practical application. Once the task is learned, and its practical importance is understood, the ISFJ will faithfully and tirelessly carry through the task to completion. The ISFJ is extremely dependable.

The ISFJ has an extremely well-developed sense of space, function, and aesthetic appeal. For that reason, they're likely to have beautifully furnished, functional homes. They make extremely good interior decorators. This special ability, combined with their sensitivity to other's feelings and desires, makes them very likely to be great gift-givers - finding the right gift which will be truly appreciated by the recipient.

More so than other types, ISFJs are extremely aware of their own internal feelings, as well as other people's feelings. They do not usually express their own feelings, keeping things inside. If they are negative feelings, they may build up inside the ISFJ until they turn into firm judgments against individuals which are difficult to unseed, once set. Many ISFJs learn to express themselves, and find outlets for their powerful emotions.

Just as the ISFJ is not likely to express their feelings, they are also not likely to let on that they know how others are feeling. However, they will speak up when they feel another individual really needs help, and in such cases they can truly help others become aware of their feelings.

The ISFJ feels a strong sense of responsibility and duty. They take their responsibilities very seriously, and can be counted on to follow through. For this reason, people naturally tend to rely on them. The ISFJ has a difficult time saying "no" when asked to do something, and may become over-burdened. In such cases, the ISFJ does not usually express their difficulties to others, because they intensely dislike conflict, and because they tend to place other people's needs over their own. The ISFJ needs to learn to identify, value, and express their own needs, if they wish to avoid becoming over-worked and taken for granted.

ISFJs need positive feedback from others. In the absence of positive feedback, or in the face of criticism, the ISFJ gets discouraged, and may even become depressed. When down on themselves or under great stress, the ISFJ begins to imagine all of the things that might go critically wrong in their life. They have strong feelings of inadequacy, and become convinced that "everything is all wrong", or "I can't do anything right".

The ISFJ is warm, generous, and dependable. They have many special gifts to offer, in their sensitivity to others, and their strong ability to keep things running smoothly. They need to remember to not be overly critical of themselves, and to give themselves some of the warmth and love which they freely dispense to others.

Portrait of an ISFP - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving
(Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Sensing)

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The Artist

As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.

ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.

ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.

ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.

ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.

ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.

ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.

ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.

The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.

The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.

Portrait of an INFJ - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
(Introverted Intuition with Extraverted Feeling)

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The Protector

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

Portrait of an ESFJ - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging
(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Sensing)

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The Caregiver

As an ESFJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.

ESFJs are people persons - they love people. They are warmly interested in others. They use their Sensing and Judging characteristics to gather specific, detailed information about others, and turn this information into supportive judgments. They want to like people, and have a special skill at bringing out the best in others. They are extremely good at reading others, and understanding their point of view. The ESFJ's strong desire to be liked and for everything to be pleasant makes them highly supportive of others. People like to be around ESFJs, because the ESFJ has a special gift of invariably making people feel good about themselves.

The ESFJ takes their responsibilities very seriously, and is very dependable. They value security and stability, and have a strong focus on the details of life. They see before others do what needs to be done, and do whatever it takes to make sure that it gets done. They enjoy these types of tasks, and are extremely good at them.

ESFJs are warm and energetic. They need approval from others to feel good about themselves. They are hurt by indifference and don't understand unkindness. They are very giving people, who get a lot of their personal satisfaction from the happiness of others. They want to be appreciated for who they are, and what they give. They're very sensitive to others, and freely give practical care. ESFJs are such caring individuals, that they sometimes have a hard time seeing or accepting a difficult truth about someone they care about.

With Extraverted Feeling dominating their personality, ESFJs are focused on reading other people. They have a strong need to be liked, and to be in control. They are extremely good at reading others, and often change their own manner to be more pleasing to whoever they're with at the moment.

The ESFJ's value system is defined externally. They usually have very well-formed ideas about the way things should be, and are not shy about expressing these opinions. However, they weigh their values and morals against the world around them, rather than against an internal value system. They may have a strong moral code, but it is defined by the community that they live in, rather than by any strongly felt internal values.

ESFJs who have had the benefit of being raised and surrounded by a strong value system that is ethical and centered around genuine goodness will most likely be the kindest, most generous souls who will gladly give you the shirt off of their back without a second thought. For these individuals, the selfless quality of their personality type is genuine and pure. ESFJs who have not had the advantage of developing their own values by weighing them against a good external value system may develop very questionable values. In such cases, the ESFJ most often genuinely believes in the integrity of their skewed value system. They have no internal understanding of values to set them straight. In weighing their values against our society, they find plenty of support for whatever moral transgression they wish to justify. This type of ESFJ is a dangerous person indeed. Extraverted Feeling drives them to control and manipulate, and their lack of Intuition prevents them from seeing the big picture. They're usually quite popular and good with people, and good at manipulating them. Unlike their ENFJ cousin, they don't have Intuition to help them understand the real consequences of their actions. They are driven to manipulate other to achieve their own ends, yet they believe that they are following a solid moral code of conduct.

All ESFJs have a natural tendency to want to control their environment. Their dominant function demands structure and organization, and seeks closure. ESFJs are most comfortable with structured environments. They're not likely to enjoy having to do things which involve abstract, theoretical concepts, or impersonal analysis. They do enjoy creating order and structure, and are very good at tasks which require these kinds of skills. ESFJs should be careful about controling people in their lives who do not wish to be controlled.

ESFJs respect and believe in the laws and rules of authority, and believe that others should do so as well. They're traditional, and prefer to do things in the established way, rather than venturing into unchartered territory. Their need for security drives their ready acceptance and adherence to the policies of the established system. This tendency may cause them to sometimes blindly accept rules without questioning or understanding them.

An ESFJ who has developed in a less than ideal way may be prone to being quite insecure, and focus all of their attention on pleasing others. He or she might also be very controling, or overly sensitive, imagining bad intentions when there weren't any.

ESFJs incorporate many of the traits that are associated with women in our society. However, male ESFJs will usually not appear feminine at all. On the contrary, ESFJs are typically quite conscious about gender roles and will be most comfortable playing a role that suits their gender in our society. Male ESFJs will be quite masculine (albeit sensitive when you get to know them), and female ESFJs will be very feminine.

ESFJs at their best are warm, sympathetic, helpful, cooperative, tactful, down-to-earth, practical, thorough, consistent, organized, enthusiastic, and energetic. They enjoy tradition and security, and will seek stable lives that are rich in contact with friends and family.

Portrait of an ENFJ - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
(Extraverted Feeling with Introverted Intuition)

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The Giver

As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.

Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.

The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves.

People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning. They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any connection to a human element. Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present.

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules, without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty. They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

Randomness

updated some more 25th May
Dunno why lately I've been updating my blog very often -.-... maybe I to sien ady or just wondering what I'm gonna do during the 2 weeks holiday on 1st Jun as everybody else holiday are different timing.

Haiz, thanks to plenty of free time and laziness... I watched 3 dramas in two weeks some more during exam =(...

hmm, I bet my power shoot up a lot again lo since I like everyday take turns on the com and watch tv -.-... pity my own eyes but I just can't seem to stop

err, still deciding what to do during the coming 2 weeks holiday

so long never played badminton or ping-pong or softball ady... =( missed them wei as I had plenty of good memories playing them.

hate myself for not taking the chance when its possible

love myself for being an idiot XD

feel like eating fast food everyday during the holidays... but I scared later I die of heart attack

believes that nobody does anything for anyone else unless it benefits themselves in anyway

thinks that the world is full of hypocrites or something like that

wondering why i turn out to be like this... seriously damn a lot of changes in me wei

recently have been thinking about all the other possibilities on what could have happen if i've done things differently or if i've stayed in subang instead of moving

err... love starbucks green tea frappacino or something like that, but too expensive =(

what else le... I'm happy just by seeing u smile =)

for now have no expectation in live =(... sad case wei

want to have another class reunion again... but this time hopefully a much cheaper place

want to cheer people up but dunno how to... dun even know if it actually make matters worse than it already is

err, very useless in basketball even though i'm tall ( i'm just a balak there)... ... air ball king in basketball XD

got kinda addicted to chinese dramas thanks to both my sisters who kept on watching them during my SPM.. so while studying I also watch XD... ended up wasting money on buying them

err Jian-Yong said that i'm a otaku or something like that... a level 1 otaku XD... didn't know that otaku's have levels XD... why am I an otaku???

i have a weird sense of humor...

a lousy judgment in choosing friends

a lousy friend myself

do not do anything that does not benefit me in anyway

loves bread XD... after watching yakitake japan and Italy, bread rocks wei

soya bean without sugar taste a bit weird, but i kinda like it somehow and its healthy =)

sushi is damn nice but expensive

bbq watermelon is a good idea but make sure its bbqed first and not after beef if not i'll will taste like beef watermelon XD

hmm, archery a pyramid was nice... but a little to expensive and the target is too near

ice skating rocks though i fell a lot of times and got blisters after that... but its worth it man!!!

history of best and good friends since I was young- Timothy, Rudra, Jimmy, Ealine, Thin Jason, Chin Kit, Aaron, Loo something XD, Marvin, Derek Wong, Kelvin Loke, Sook Hwa, Afi Dil Firdaus, someone who looked like han shen but i cannot remember his name, Kelvin Eng, Thava Kumaran, John, Haikal, ... Cikgu Hanafi (class teacher) and Mr.Ashad( guru pengawas)( not exactly friends but good teachers, they are teaches during standard 5 and 6 when i was a pengawas in Tropicana... hopefully I spelled their name correct), Luke, Yat Hong, Jian-Yong, Shou Jie, Wei Mae, Tania, Han Shen, Kar Loke, Wei Xin, Yong Ken, Melvin, Lee Hang, Magdalene, Abby, Pris, Huey Teck, Hen Yu, Mior, then whole 5D... lastly, this year too soon...

people whom i hated before... me, myself, I, my two sisters, Jimmy, Yat Hong, Huey Teck, Sherane, Ching Hou, err thats about it XD... hated my friends for a short while due to some reasons la... its common right

changes in me - height is the first most obvious thing lo... shoot up a lot during form 3 to 5, next is looks lo... now more yong sui ady compared to last time... then gain in weight, then personality lo. No longer the naive annoying idiot i use to be... now i'm just a stupid annoying emotionless idiot XD

hmm, wanna thank those of people form making my life fun and interesting and those who are there for me when i'm down- you know whom I'm talking about, so i don't have to bother to mention names if not it will be a very long list... ... Just to let u people know, though i'm pretty sure u guys already know... there is such thing as faking emotions... so never judge a book by its cover and never fully trust what u see, as it may just be an illusion made just to fool you.

Most songs that i like are either classic(i think) or pop or rock if i'm not mistaken... some of them I may not like the whole song but parts of it which have meaning or that sounds nice =D

I Love village park's nasi lemak... though i take away the ikan bilis and don't eat the sambal... but i love the rendang there

enough of crapping and randomness for now XD... no more ideas to crap for the time being

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MORE RANDOMNESS.............................


err as u guys know la that I had feelings for Elaine, Sook Hwa, Wei Mae and Lee Hang before. Then now secret lo... dunno how to approach her le =(...

I love cheese cake!!!! so nice!!!

still dunno what to do for the hols=(

preparing myself to approach her one of these days before the hols

I'm damn weak... even lost in arm wrestling against Samantha Tock -.- (no face man me)

suck at dota, counter strike, L4D1 & 2, COD and almost every computer and ps2 games I've played... ... *correction, every game I've played so far.

kinda like taking photo of other people and stuff but dislike taking photo of myself or with me in it

most of the time I'll take photo with the one I want only

the weirder I act when I'm with u, it means that the closer I consider u to be to me... dunno why I like that -.-

most favorite book is Darren Shan... i know, kids book... but its nice for me =D

Fav chinese series is Journey To The West
Fav english movie is dunno


I also love fried rice =DD... i think thats my most fav food... so my birthday present u know what to get for me la XP

Want t0 own quite a number of bb guns... but expensive le =(

I'm very lazy... especially when it comes to doing homework or cleaning my room

Err, I like independent girls, who are nice and got a sense of humor- but knows when to be serious so that she can control me at times... err pretty will be a big bonus but not a must... personality is the most important for me lo... I dislike bitchy, un-independent, manja, stuck up girls

hmmm, I like the color black, white and blue... and I mostly wear black cause its easier to take care and wont get stained so easily

err, the thing I mainly do in FB is social interview XD... cause I'm bored and LOA -.-

urm, updated enough for now la... no more ideas to crap ady

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I'm Only Human

Nobody can be perfect and neither can I. We're only human and so am I. Therefore there is only up to a certain limit where we're able to tolerate things so is there a limit to my patience.

People make mistakes and so do I. People tell lies and I sadly I do too. There is one thing I have which most people have too. Hope, everybody wishes for a better tomorrow but all we're do is just hope and not take any action... why is that so?- simple, we're only human. 1 person cannot change the world so why bother trying when pollution will never stop and world peace will never be achieved. -simple, cause we're human... we strive to achieve the unachievable thought we may very well know that we'll never reach it.

In other words, we make mistakes cause we're human, we learn from our mistake cause we're human. We remake the same mistake cause we're human and we re-repeat the same mistake not only because we're human but also because we're idiots who never bother to learn XXDDD

Everytime -.-

I've just realize this. Every time I go out for an outing, after that I'll always feel regret for going out =.=... dunno why. I always feel excited when there is an outing, but during the outing it just gets weird for me. Then after the outing, I wonder why I even went out in the first place.
As an example, today I went out for the class reunion thing at Dome... I was exited about it this morning since I'll be able to see old friends. Then when I'm there, just started wondering why I even bother to go. Then as I just got home, I said to myself... ' What a waste of time going out.'... and for what?... waste money, waste time, so for what le?? haiz...

Worse thing yet, I keep repeating this mistake over and over again and I dunno why I do so...
and FYI people, I don't like taking pictures of myself with or without other people... ... only if i want to then Ill take. Other than that le, I don't see whats wrong with being quiet. It gives time to listen and more time to think about stuff.

I like this saying- People say I'm crazy, I say their blind. Then I added, people whom I don't like say hi to me, I say I'm blind =D

Today I finally finished the drama A Fistful Of Stances. As Lee Hang said, it was nice =D... for me, this drama is a sad drama which talked about how corruption is allowed in the village which lead to many unfortunate events for a family. It also shows how one person kindness will not be return but instead taken advantage of and punished =(. But as most dramas, the ending was a happy one whereby good will prevail and evil doings will not go unpunished.
In the drama, there is a couplet which is really meaningful. Err direct translation or at least i think it is - NO ONE KNOWS WHAT YOU DID, ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS YOUR INTENT.

So in other words, say what you want to say and do what you want to do. Just remember that though we may not know if your lying or telling the truth, or what you're doing is right or wrong, Heaven will know. And in the end, you'll cause yourself more trouble and misery than happiness and prosperity or something like that.

Planning Ahead =D

Tomorrow is the last day for the mid sem test =D... then after that dunno if got any plans for the day... ... hmmm, then on friday the class reunion thing- still debating whether i should go or not -, then Yu Beng's birthday the following day- hmmm -, after that college for 1 more week, then off to Taman Negara - alone =( - then HOLIDAYS !!!

Here is the plan... ... ... there is no plan, just see what tomorrow have installed for me when the time comes. This is the kind of attitude or is it personality which isn't good. One must plan ahead to fully utilized their time and not waste it- unlike me -

Anyways... downloaded some new songs. Well they are actually old, but I just downloaded them so they are new in the sense of err... you get the point:
Boyzone- Love Is A Hurricane, No Matter What
Daniel Merriweather- Water and a Flame
Jimmy Cliff- I Can See Clearly Now (I dunno if this is the version i heard in the cartoon i watched long time ago)
Aerosmith- I Don't Want To Miss A Thing
Goo Goo Dolls- Iris

Hope U like This Poem

Its a very touching poem =)... hope u enjoy it. The title is:

Sometimes

Sometimes...
when you cry...
no one sees your tears.
Sometimes...
when you are in pain...
no one sees your hurt.
Sometimes...
when you are worried...
no one sees your stress.
Sometimes...
when you are happy...
no one sees your smile.
But fart just ONE time...
And everybody knows!!!

Gotcha!!! Bet you thought it was going to be one of those heart-touching poem.

This one le, I also posted it in facebook in 2008... same thing lo, nobody saw it so I post it here with the same reason. This joke is also from the same book as the joke before this which i apparently still cannot remember the title of the book =C

Just A Joke

Haiz, post this in facebook in 2008 no response at all... so post here hopefully can share the laughter with other people:

At The White House
George: Condi! Nice to see you. What's happening?
Condi: Sir, I have the report here about the new leader of China.
George: Great. I'm all ears.
Condi: Hu is the leader of China
George: That's what I want to know.
Condi: That's what I'm telling you.
George: That's what I'm asking you. Who is the new leader of China?
Condi: Yes.
George: I mean the follow's name.
Condi: Hu
George: The new leader of China.
Condi: Hu
George: The Chinaman!
Condi: Hu is leading China.
George: Now whaddya asking me for?
Condi: I'm telling you Hu is leading China.
George: Your telling me who is leading China. Well I'm asking you. Who is leading China?
Condi: That's the man's name.
George: That's whose name?
Condi: Yes.
George: Will you or will you not tell me the name of the new leader of China?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Yasser? Yasser Arafat is in China? I thought he was in the Middle East.
Condi: That's correct.
George: Then who is in China?
Condi: Hu.
George: Who is in China?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Yasser is in China?
Condi: No, sir.
George: Look, Condi, I need to know the name of the new leader of China. Get me the secretary of the UN on the phone.
Condi: Kofi?
George: No thanks.
Condi:You want Kofi?
George: No.
Condi: You don't want Kofi?
George: No, but now that you mention it, I could use a glass of milk.
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: Not Yasser! The gut at UN.
Condi: Kofi?
George: Milk! Will you please make the call?
Condi: And call who?
George: Who is the guy at UN?
Condi: Hu is the guy at China.
George: Will you stay out of China?
Condi: Yes, sir.
George: And stay out of Middle East. Just get me the guy at UN.
Condi: Kofi?
George: Alright. With cream and two sugars. Now get on the phone.
Condi picks up the phone: Rice here.
George: Rice? Good idea. And a couple of egg rolls, too. Maybe we should send some to the guy in China. And the Middle East. Can you get Chinese food in the Middle East?

hope u guys enjoy it...
Ps; i stole this from a joke book... a very nice and funny joke book which apparently i cannot remember what the title is =(

Titleless (Crapping only)

So many things have happen in my life
Most of which are good but there are moments where I wish never happen
Getting to know some of my friends and getting hurt were two very different matters.
In live, there always is ups and downs like there is yin and yang.
Though at times unhappy moments may seem to be everlasting
But remember, after the rain there always is a rainbow somewhere.
Though I wish that happy times may last forever
But as a saying goes, the sea is calm before the worse (or something like that)

Growing up, I've learn a couple of things something...
These things changed me from who I used to be to who I am now
1.) Cherish friends, as they are the one who would be by your side when the time calls for it... no matter how long have gone by, once a friend always a friend =D
2.) Keep the unhappy moments to myself. I do not see the point in telling other people about the sad things that happen as it just spoils the mood and I doubt they will ever understand it anyways
3.) Stop being so annoying... people hate annoying people, one must know when to stop disturbing another person, like when one wants to catch a fish, they have to learn how to rail it in and let it loose to prevent the line from breaking. (I'm still trying though)
4.)Be honest on how you feel about another person, as honesty is the best policy (Its just cow dung) but quite true. By telling that person, it may help them to improve their personality.
5.) Life is full of obstacles. One can only keep it inside for a certain amount of time but eventually will have to share it with others in order to release the burden or the pain in the chest.
6.) Listening, thats why we have two ears and one mouth is so that we would listen more than we talk. Though we may not be of any help, but at least we are willing to listen =)
7.)Nodding your head... this I bet everybody knows. Its used when you actually don't understand what that person is saying though he/she have repeated it many times. So to save both the trouble, just nod the head, smile and say 'I UNDERSTAND'. It also can be use when you're tired of listening to the person talking
8.) Letting go, I've read a newspaper article from the SUN which sadly I cannot seem to remember which date it was. The article was talking about how people say they have forgiven another person for what they have done wrong. That may be true, but most of the people never forget it and deep down inside, they actually still hold a grudge against that person. This can also be applied in letting go memories about sad moments =D
9.) err I wanted to write until 10 but in the end I got lazy to figure out one more so the last one is do not be lazy. Its ok to relax or enjoy oneself once in awhile. Sadly for people like me, I'm relaxing all the time and never set my main priorities first... (guess it runs in the family XD)
10.) The most important thing I've learn so far is never fully trust anyone... its a sad thing to learn actually but still an important thing. After watching quite a number of movies and listening to other people shooting one another behind each other backs, makes me wonder how many people shoot me behind their backs... I know its normal (I guess) but I just cannot seem to wonder why they just are unable to say it in our faces so that we can learn how to improve our-self... after learning that, I've been wondering if there is anyone these days who is categorize as A REAL FRIEND... sure you can say that a person you just met is your friend, but WHAT MAKES A REAL FRIEND??? that really bothers me.
11.) I think this just applies to me. People says it better to have love and lost than to never love at all. But I think that its better not to have felt it at all than to have love and lost, at least then the feeling of pain and sorrow would not have been felt

Ahahaha, I say 9 was the last one ended up got 11 XXDDDD

So in other words, we learn many things in life
Some which may not be the one we want
but still a lesson nonetheless.
As time goes by, we change...
but the things we learn will always be in us
reminding us of who we were and how we became who we are now

thank you for reading

Huge Burden Gone

Finally, after today one big burden have been set free... ESL I.S is finally finish and handed up =D
Well over the past couple of weeks, got Class Test, LAN final test, Direct Investigative and the English I.S... ... not just left 2 more which are Mid semester test and Physic investigative report =(

I got this from a drama- In The Eyes Of The Beholder - which is a nice and funny drama which I kinda recommend to watch... but if you do watch, do not blame me if you don't like it ... ... hopefully I remember it correctly, but it goes something like this:
People laugh at me cause they think I'm crazy, I laugh at them cause they dunno what I'm thinking

Another drama which I watch is Seasons of Fate which is also quite nice... the actor is the Ah Wong guy whom I still can't remember his name XD.

now got 3 more dramas waiting to be watch when my holidays arrive which are
A Watchdogs Tale
Cupid Stupid
and and
A Fistful of Stances

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

errr... so far college life have been interesting as the lecturers are nice and fun and the class is something like 5D (the noise and playfulness)... but not even close to 5D XD

hmm, out of boredom I decided to write something... err a poem or whatever you call it

Standing in the middle of a crossroad
With 4 options lying ahead of me
Back, right, front and left
With the back close due to on coming traffic
I'm only left with 3 options left

The easy way is to go front with the flow

but left and right is just to tempting
and I'm out of ideas -.- ... ... XXDDDDD

yawn... shok sendiri here XP

Robbie Williams- Morning Sun =D

"Morning Sun"

How do you rate the morning sun?
After a long and sleepless night
How many stars would you give to the moon
Do you see those stars from where you are?
Shine on the lost and loneliest
The ones who can't get over it

You always wanted more than life
But now you don't have the appetite
In a message to the troubador
The world don't love you anymore
Tell me how do you rate the morning sun?

Stuck inside the rainbow years
And you could happen to me
'Cause I've been close to where you are
I drove to places you have seen
It all seems so familiar
Like they'd been sent to kill ya

It doesn't take an astronaut
To float in the space is just a thought
The morning brings a mystery
The evening makes it history
Tell me how do you rate the morning sun?

And the village drunk
Sadly passed away
It was a shame
I never knew his name
I wonder if he sat there every morning
And watched the sun rise

How do you rate the morning sun?
It was just too heavy for me
And all I wanted was the world
If you are the starlet in the sun
Don't go wasting your time
'Cause there is no finish line

And you don't see anything
Not even love, not anything
The night can take the man from you
A sense of wonder overdue
The morning brings a mystery
The evening makes it history
Who am I to rate the morning sun?