Do you get the feeling of sadness?
When most of the things you like just cease to exist.
Some by choice while nothing can be done about others.
Mac Donald's chicken foldover, their country grill chicken burger...
Dragon - i's chicken and ham fried rice
Ikea's hotdog and meatball (the awesome one if you get what I mean)
Rave and Yakitake Japan anime
Better Off Ted comedy and Reaper series
The store which when you pay RM2 note for a chewing gum you get back 3 RM1 coin plus 40 cents as change.
The motorcycle outside primary school which sells nice leko balls or something like that with nice sauce for 20cents per ball
The ice-cream man who sells the cuboid shape red bean, corn, durian and other flavors ice-cream
The friends you used to play with when you were young. Living in the same neighborhood. Just houses away...
Or the toys you use to cherish. Like hot wheels, pokemon cards, tamagotchi, the bulky nitendo gameboy.
The first ever comic book or your first pillow / blanky (blanket)
Pet / Pets which come and go.
People which come and go.
The game store we used to go and play after school
The ciplak cyber cafe at center point... (Well I do not miss that XD)
But yea, you get the idea... those kind of things.
So why like something or getting close to someone? When in the future, they will just go somewhere else.

Oh ya, I want to read... finish the books which I bought and I am bored again. Any recommendations?

~~~~~ADDED 11.40pm~~~~~
I have to ask for guidance. What should I say to a friend after 10 years or even longer? Where to begin? Or should I say how?... I am no longer the person I used to be. I'm pretty sure neither are they. I have already screwed up three times. Would the 4th time be the charm?... would I even attempt the 4th time?

Went and watch Star Wars Episode 1: The Phantom Menace.
I am not a huge fan of Star Wars but still, the movie was still good ^_^
Can't believe that this was actually a pretty old movie.

Anyways, I want to watch Avangers when it comes out. Also, Titanic in 3D? not sure about that...
Oh ya, MIB 3 also!

~~~~~ADDED 10.50pm~~~~~
Finished Gintama season 4 =(... They should make have more of a storyline showing more of Takasugi! and as to what he plans to do and what not. I actually do not get what this anime is about XXDDDDDDD But it is funny thanks to it's randomness. Can't wait to watch season 5 ^_^
Watched Jackass the movie... People doing random stuff XD

... My sleeping time have been off. Can't seem to get myself back to the usual time which is 11pm to around 6am. Classes will be starting next week. Maybe this is because I laze around at home the whole time. Never use up my energy. So maybe that is why I am unable to sleep. Been waking up around 9 to 10am.

Other than that, been thinking about Lee Hang again =.=... Just came into my mind out of the blue. Same thing. Why?

Oh ya, just finish reading the 5th book of the Vampirates. Usually reading helps me to fall asleep. Guess after awhile, everything losses it effectiveness. Anyways, can't wait for the final book to come out.

... Guess the how you treat others is how others treat you thing is quite true.

I wish I could read books similar to Kane and Abel and Angels & Demons. Oh ya, Enid Blyton... there was this book which I remember reading it when I was young. Wonder if I can find it again.

~~~~~ADDED 4pm~~~~~
Decided to on my my facebook...
vertual_kid@yahoo. com

Been listening to quite a number of songs the past couple of days. They are sang by Backstreet Boys, Boyzone, Bryan Adams, Cascada, FM Static, Gareth Gates, Lifehouse, N'Sync, Ronan Keating, Westlife, Whitney Houston and a couple of other artist such as James Blunt, Juwita Suwito, Katy Perry, Kelly Clarkson, Luke Bryan, and Snow Petrol. Most of the songs I have not heard them before. But there were some which I heard once or twice before.

I wonder is there any other songs which are nice and easy to listen to...

The song below and others which are similar to it to me are meaningless. I see no point in listening to them... but she is still a kid...

~~~~~ ADDED AT 11.30pm~~~~~

Haiz, seemed to be unable to sleep again. Stupid me... Thinking about what happened again and the actions I took. I still wonder, what have I done wrong? Was something lacking? Who knows.

I just realize that I do not have to courage within me to greet certain people out of the blue in public... Weird I know. Don't think that anyone else experiences / experienced this kind of thing right?...

Lalalalalalalalala

Music To My Ears

A couple of songs which I find are nice to listen to ^_^

Conned...

"Yawn"... Wei Mae's blog... curses...
If you want something done right or at least without any regrets later even if a mistake was made, you have to do it yourself.
... =.= This is what I get for trusting what a friend of my said without doing any further digging to find out whether what he said is true or not. In the end, in my point of view, it turned out to be quite confusing. 2 things which does not goes well together. Hope the other people not so diligent to google it and just believe what I said like how I believe what he told me XD

Today

Well, I wasted 4 hours plus of my life today...
Wont be doing something that stupid again...

... Other than that, Failed to deliver 1, 1 set back and forgot about 1. Got lazy... Petrol consuming $$ T_T

~~~~~added at 7,50pm~~~~~
Gintama episode 79 is just plain hilarious XXDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

So, on Tuesday (7/2/2012) went to watch Chronicle at Berjaya Times Square. The movie for me was pretty average only. Went and try this char siew pizza. Pretty interesting. Wished it was larger though.
Nothing much happened on Wednesday to Friday.
Saturday (11/2/2012) basketball in the morning, followed by breakfast then a little taste of sake. I preferred it cold I guess.
After that, went to Justin's open house. It was awesome. Met quite a number of people... but sorry yea, I am not able to remember their names XD
Cant remember when was the last time I saw a lion dance.

Then yesterday (12/2/2012) went to Dirty Nelly's for the coupon thing. Well, the food there was slightly above average for me. I believe I did not manage to eat my moneys worth though... The only picture I take over there was this glass of err mohito/mojito? Then today, I believe I just got conned XD... nothing serious. Just that when I asked a week back, they say that is all they have. When I went today, there was like 4 more kinds...

... Good news, I still have not regret posting the previous post. Nor have I dwell on that issue yet.

Other than that, started watching an anime called 'Gintama' a couple of days back. If you want to watch something which is just lame, stupid and random, this is the one all right. I find this anime is pretty hilarious... Randomness to the maxxxxxxx ^_^

Anyways, a quote I read quite some time ago. It goes something like "If you are about to give up on something, remember what it was that makes it worth while in the first place."
So in other words, boss do not give up if you once thought it was worth fighting for.

Bluntness

Having Generalize anxiety order is not always a bad thing. It has it's perks =)
Once in awhile, the time spent trying to sleep gives me time to think about stuff. Some which I find hilarious, some which helps me make up my mind over undecided things while the others are pretty much a waste of my time.

I usually keep this kind of things to myself. But as I have mentioned long ago, I use my blog as a form of therapy for me.

So tonight I finally made up my mind to forget about Lee Hang. I should start with my reasons for doing so. She never once wished me Happy Birthday. She never once attended my invitation. She never once invited me. And she never tells me anything...
To be honest, I do not think I would have even noticed her if I had not moved to the back row sit during form 4. I have to admit though, it was good while it lasted.
... Yea this is pretty one sided and is just based on my viewpoint. Maybe she is the same to others maybe not. Thankfully I am done.

I wont lie, I will definitely replay this moment in my mind over and over again. Who knows when and for how long. Maybe even right after I post this... Thinking how stupid was I to post such a thing XD

Anyways, I do not regret meeting her. As a saying which I got from the app 'quotes wp' goes, "Don't cry because its over. Smile because it happened."

In conclusion, I feel so at peace and relax now. Do not know how long this feeling will last...

Help???

Anyone knows where I was or what I was doing on the 15 December 2011 at around 12.30pm or a couple of hours before that?...
any messages I sent to you days before or on that day asking you out on 15 December or saying that I will be going out?

Definition?

Like (common) --> have feelings for someone else... want to have a relationship with them?
Like (for me) --> find person interesting, want to know more about that person.

Love (common) --> In a relationship?... love the other person...
Love (for me) --> have feelings for the other person. Want to have a relationship with them.

Care (common) --> Really want that person to be happy and safe?...
Care (for me) --> same la...

So many words which have the same spelling or pronunciation but have different meanings. So many words which have been adapted by people to suit themselves or the occasion.

Date (common) --> relationship, going out...
Date (for me) --> as friends and want to know more about that person.

I believe I have found the reason why.
A.) i) Long time to reply?
ii) No value...
B.) i) Ignored
ii) Do not care
iii) Never once...
I guess myself is to be blamed...
"It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation"


~~~~~Added 10.15pm~~~~~
ZzZzZzZzZzZzZ to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!
*Banging head to the wall over and over again while scratching head till hair falls off
zZzZzZzZzZzZz... ... アホ

David Archuleta

WAIT


I can't sleep I'm feeling wide awake
Tonight is taking it's time
How much more before the morning breaks
And I can leave it all behind
'Cause every time I try to close my eyes
I only end up seeing memories of you
And it's never enough I'm waiting
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
I am keeping every word you say
But how much longer can I hold on
Cause whispers echoing until they fade
Remind me that you're already gone
'Cause every time I try to chase your voice
I end up getting lost and running in circles
And it's never enough I'm waiting
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Oooh yeah don't go
Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute wait wait wait don't go
Just one more minute wait wait wait don't go
Copied from MetroLyrics.com

Awesome song which seems to suit me very well ^_^