Endless Suffering

Well based on the title, its not actually endless and its also not suffering as it will end someday and its just that it is very demotivating to do it. What I'm talking about is cleaning my room. First and foremost, the bench and the shelve from my room have been taken out and given to my sister without my consent so basically I've got almost no free space to put all of my stuff. Secondly, I'm lazy... as everyone who knows me should have already know. So once I've finally found the mood to do something I've to do it and complete it as soon as possible if not I'll just loose my determination and leave what I'm doing hanging half way. Third and I think its the last thing is that once I finish opening and putting away one box out of the numerous number of boxes (well only 5 boxes to be exact), I feel happy as I've done it.... but then I realize that there is another box which is full of junk in it waiting for me to open it and the trouble of deciding where to put it and putting it there starts all over again. So this leads back to the second thing which is laziness XD... I loose the momentary drive to clean my room and watch HK drama till I get back the mood to do so... Haiz...

Other than that, another year is about to end and a new chapter is about to start. Haiz, every year more work, more $ spent and more worries but at least there is more friends, more experience and more food =D

Some of the things that I've learned. Some which I may have repeated many times before Xp:

Guess being sociable is a good thing... But like I've said once or twice before. If I'm interested then I'll talk to you / disturb you though sometimes its too much if I don't then you get the memo... or maybe I'm just too busy or don't dare to contact you XD

Studying is important... not just every now and then and for a short time but constantly and for a few hours or so. Sadly I'm too lazy to do so but hopefully I'll change, or at least I'll try to change... Tough luck though, better chance of seeing a pig fly XD

Promises are easy to make but sometimes they are hard to keep... I tend to forget some of the promises I made to people. Hope none of them is important till it will ruin my friendship with that person.

Everybody is wearing a mask. They hide their true nature from other people so one will never truly know what is going on in another persons mind unless he or she is physic.

Everything that everyone do has an ulterior motive behind their actions... at least I know I do and I think this applies for everyone.

Sometimes a lie is better than the truth. But if it a lie has to be said then at least have the courtesy to tell a proper lie and follow it through after that. But is the lie told really better than the truth or should the truth be told no matter what? I always wonder that when I tell a lie...

Looking forward and having a goal in life is good. Dwelling in the past only brings unnecessary misery or something like that which is not good. But never forget the pass as it reminds us of who we are and what people have done to and for us... So we can return the favor or have REVENGE WAKAKAKAKA XD

Some things which I hope will be implemented on me by other people and to other people by me:

Honesty and Straight Forwardness- Even if it hurts just be honest. I think its better than letting that person find out by themselves. Get to the point without beating around the bush. Eg: If you don't want to talk to that person or the person is too annoying just inform that person.

Backstabbing and Badmouthing- I think this is pretty common but why not just say it straight to that person's face?... I try to reduce me doing it to the min but sometimes it is inevitable.

Basically that is all... I always wonder what I hear is the truth or a lie. Words can be twisted to mean a different thing and what people are thinking and what they say can actually be totally different. So I guess I'll just have to hope that what I hear is the truth and not a lie. But I can't stop wondering, what if everything I've heard is just a lie... I guess I'll never know unless a sign saying "its all a lie" knocks me in the head XD