Decision >:l ... =(

In the past recent weeks, my mind has been wandering about stuff... as usual, not important to most people but its annoying the hell out of me -.-... Every time I thought I've manage to let it go, it just pops back into my mind a couple of weeks later =(. Not only that, most of the time when this happens, I will have migraines/bad headache =(

Personally, I think feelings are important as it makes us human. But other than that, I really need to let go of my emotions. It has cause me nothing but headache and heartache over the past years. So why bother with emotions when it slows people down. I believe people without emotions has no/barely any boundaries preventing them from making more of themselves as it does not affect them when they make a decision.

So in the end, I've made up my mind on something even though I don't want to do it. It was really a hard decision but whats need to be done has to be done =(. Hopefully by doing this, it will help in the long run. All I think it needs to be completed is DETERMINATION and MORE DETERMINATION and - yes you guess it, MORE DETERMINATION, which apparently I have very low/little of it.

My decision that I have made has about 4 stages I think...

Stage 1 - delete fb friends, except those who I met this year and also those who are in my college.

Stage 2- delete all-ok not all, most my past year photos.

Stage 3- Clear my contact list, except those who are from college and those whom I met this year

Stage 4- delete those in my msn list as stated in stage 1 & 3

... if there is stage 5 and ++ I don't know about it yet...

So hopefully by doing so, I will be able to get my head straight and find peace and inner peace. For me, peace is very hard to come by for the past couple of years as most of you know that during form 4 and 5, my class was one of the nosiest. Even this year in college, my class which has only 21 people is also very annoying and noisy -.-... the noise is no really due to the whole class being noisy but just a handful of them which can't seem to be quiet for long enough.

There is a saying, a rotten apple spoils the whole batch... well its quite true, but personally I think that its not entirely true. I believe with determination, we are actually able to overcome the saying.

In college, I got kinda addicted to cc =(... L4D2, Quake 4, CS 1.6, and recently Starcraft again.
But I've made up my mind and hopefully it will last. NO GOING TO CC EXCEPT ON MONDAYS & ONLY MONDAYS. So during the other days I think I'll have to find something else to do other than CC.

well, so far I've only started/done/completed stage one and I'm not sure whether I should be happy or sad

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I think I've completed stage 2 also, but there are still some photos which I'm not sure if I should delete them or not =(

Haiz, I'm afraid that I will regret my decision in the future... pictures are all I have left of those happy moments. Memories of which I would soon forget without pictures.

Another weird dream -.-

hmm, dunno why for the past couple of days I've been having weird dreams...

Last night, I dream about L4D2... and I was in it. In the dream, it was night time and I was a house. Then all of a sudden a tanker appear -.-... So as usual, I started running all over the place - out and back into the house while shooting the tank. There were like people on the floor asking for help as I run pass them.

Then after the 4th or 5th time entering the same house, all of a sudden there is a new gun inside...something like a ray gun. So I took the weapon and continue shooting it. At that moment, the tank became green and becomes like the hulk XD and the gun doesn't seem to have any effect on it. Then soon after that, the tank whack me- sent me flying and I woke up... *phew

I think I play to much L4D ady until dream like that... which reminds me, on monday damn shok wei play L4D2 versus mode...
Me, Justin, Huey Teck and Chung Hoong were the infected and we pawnned the survivors who are Chong Wei, Julian, one random stranger and an AI in about 1 minute when they exit the safe room XXDDD... that was the fastest and most exiting game I've played so far for L4D

Quick Update

Err, downloaded some songs... again... as usual, they are not new but I just downloaded them =D

One Republic- Secrets =DD
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now =D
Something About The Way You Look Tonight =)
Daniel Powter-Next Plane Home =D
Taylor Swift - Teardrops on My Guitar =)
Bryan Adams - (Everything I Do) I Do it for You =)
Celine Dion - My Heart Will Go On =D

"Secrets"

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
'Til all my sleeves are stained red

From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

A dream -.-

Yesterday I had a weird dream wei. The dream started out in a bus, the bus was driving to the airport. Apparently I was going to Oklahoma -.-... I dun even know where is that and why i was going there... but in my dream Oklahoma was in Wigan =.=... - wtf right, fail geography XD.

Then my dream skip to when I arrive at a old rundown wooden house =(. the floor was muddy, the toilet was like those kampung wan where its just a small wooden box - seperated from the house and there is a creepy old man with a top-hat walking pass looking at me with a creepy smile =.=.

So I ran into the house. The scariest part of the dream was that when I entered the house, it was full of bugs. Seriously, they were everywhere- on the floor, the walls and even the roof. There were cockroaches, crickets, spiders, rats -.-... so I wanted to open all the doors and let the bugs out. When I was doing that, all the bugs fly on me >_<... then I woke up...

why la, I can't have a decent dream for once

Quick Update

Beginning of this week, I got a camcorder =)
Sat basketball then makan then cc
Today, badminton again =)... kena pawn again but still fun. Then my cousin brought back GOD OF WAR 3! =D... but dunno when I'll be able to play it

I Didn't know

Today I went badminton with Chie Yang, Yat Hong, Wan Kong, Sam, Xian and Dao Han. Its been very very long since I last played badminton and today was great. Best of all, Its my first time playing badminton with net =DD. The last time I played badminton with "net" was like when I was standard 2 and the "net" was the house gate XD...

But little did I know that badminton is way way more tiring than basketball. Well, for me la at least.
See ah, for basketball I barely run here and there. To be more exact, I just stand there like a tree or a lamp post only XD so after 1 hour plus I still feel quite ok. Then I say to myself, 'I've exercise =D'. Then when I was playing badminton today, not even 30 mins and I was tired ady =(... cause I cannot just stand there and let other people do all the work as I usually do since there is only me and myself there.

Not only that, I literally kena pawned in badminton by Wan Kong, Chie Yang, Sam and even Yat Hong... I didn't play with Xian but I'm 100& sure he would have owned me too =(...
I knew Wan Kong was good, but I didn't know that he was that good wei-Seriously.

So in conclusion, I'm proud to say that I EXERCISE today =DD