... Today I went Kar Loke's house alone... it wasn't that bad, but suppose to have more people according to Kar Loke. When he invited me to his house, he said 'the gang is coming' and I said to myself 'I got any gang meh??' and so at his house we played naruto for 2 hours... then he taught me how to play monster hunter...
Then this coming Sunday, Jian-Yong plans to go to 1 U... I comfirm going already, but still haven't comfirm who else is going.
The day after that, i''ll be joining Priscilla and the others to play basketball at the community hall at BU. Then I hope the idea of going to play L4D after that is stil on.
Back to now... I wonder why I've met you after such a long time and at a place where I would never expect us to meet... Though it made me very happy at that time, but now I've regretted going to that camp. You have once brought joy into my life when we were still in primary school, but that ended when we enter secondary school. The past 4 years I never forget you and the joy u've brought me but now its just another memory for me. Cause you never want to speak to me ever again.
And so I wish you all the best in your SPM and hope u lead a happy life as I will try my best to do so without you keeping me company.
I will look forward to tomorrow not with any expectation of you to forgive me,nor with any hope or joy, but to continue living my life in pain and sorrow. Though I've never shown it to anyone, but it doesn't mean it isn't there. I'm still a human being after all.
And so I thank you with the bottom of my shattered heart for bringing me joy before, but now I wish we never met during the camp. Cause the pain is unbearable.
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